You Are Becoming..

Dear Reader,

Have you noticed how much you’ve grown in the very place you once hated?

For some, it’s the job. For others, the environment. For me, it was leaving the familiar for the unknown.. Leaving my family and support system back in Jamaica who fuels me with so much love, to come to a country around people I barely knew.

What shocked me most is that the thing I resisted the hardest became the very tool God used to prune me quietly, deeply into a version of myself I didn’t even know existed.

If you had told me years ago that I would one day surrender my right to defend myself, my character, my integrity, I would have said, Never.

If you told me I would stop chasing people I thought I needed—stop forcing connection where it wasn’t chosen—I would have laughed.

Yet here we are.

You no longer feed on people’s attention to feel worthy. You no longer need approval to feel loved. Somewhere along the way, you learned to let God be enough. You learned to let rejection pass through you without defining you. Lies didn’t break you. Manipulation didn’t stop you. Being misunderstood didn’t end you.

Like a seed, you adapted in a place that felt unsafe, uncomfortable, and dark and somehow, you still grew.

You were afraid to die to fear. Afraid to die to validation, codependency, comfort. But you did it anyway. You trusted God with the burial, believing He wouldn’t leave you there. And He didn’t bring back the old you. He raised something better. Something you couldn’t see yet.

Thank you for trusting God enough to let go of who you were.

I could say so much more, but… listen—you’ve grown. And I’m proud of you.

Keep surviving. Keep thriving. A seed may hate the ground it’s buried in, but the Master knows exactly where it will bloom. And you’re not just blooming, you’re budding.

Your fruit is coming.

What the enemy meant for evil, God is turning and still turning for your good.

I can’t wait to see you five years from now.