I Almost Forgot I Had a Blog…

I had to laugh at myself the other day because I completely forgot…

I have a blog.

A whole space where I can pour out my heart — whether I’m feeling low or carrying a word tucked in the corners of my spirit that could encourage someone else.

I’ve always said this and I’ll continue to say it: my life is meant to uplift, inspire, and serve.

So if there’s anything I can share that helps someone navigate a hard season, a confusing moment, or a spiritual battle — then as long as God gives me the grace, I will always show up.

Here’s the thing:

I felt a strong nudge to write. I didn’t even know what to write — but something (or better yet, The precious Holy Spirit) kept asking,

“When was the last time you posted on your blog?”

Truth is, I’ve been trying to keep up with so many platforms — TikTok, Instagram, YouTube, Spotify — and I genuinely forgot this blog exists as an equally important part of the ministry.

So first, I’m sorry for the silence.

If you follow me on TikTok (@I.am.Lenesher), Instagram & Spotify (@itstheloveofgodforme_podcast), or YouTube (Life with Lenesher), then you know your girl has been busy — doing the work of the Lord.

And honestly? I just pray that when all is said and done, this labor will not be in vain.

Let’s Get Real: Ministry Isn’t Glamorous — It’s Costly

I want to be vulnerable with you for a moment.

Sometimes it’s hard when God gives you a promise in private — a vision, a calling, a dream — and years pass with no sign of it coming to life.

That delay can tempt you to take matters into your own hands…

To force the process.

To seek validation from people.

To chase after leaders, mentors, or ministers for help — just hoping someone sees your potential and helps you walk into your calling.

I’ve done that.

And more than once, I’ve been left rejected, ignored, or even misjudged — by people I looked up to in ministry.

Some were kind and prayerful. But others?

They overlooked me.

They saw my cry for help and said nothing.

Some even took their pulpit and unknowingly (or knowingly) preached about me, instead of praying for me.

To the One Who’s Been Rejected: I See You

Maybe you’re reading this and you’ve been through the same thing:

You’re a babe in Christ, new in ministry, or just trying to grow.

You admire someone who carries the anointing you feel called to — and you keep reaching out, hoping they’ll help, mentor, or guide you.

But instead?

You get ignored.

Or worse — rejected.

And now you carry not just the weight of your calling, but the wounds from those who should have supported you.

Let me say this:

God sees you.

And just like He’s teaching me, He will teach you to stop looking for man to open what only He can unlock.

I’ve Decided to Sit & Wait on God

Yes, there are ministers who are powerful, anointed, and seasoned.

I turned to many of them, not because I idolized them — but because I believed they had something to offer.

But I’ve learned this the hard way:

Only the One who created the product knows how to launch it.

God didn’t need man’s help to bring me this far —

Not when He helped me become the first author in my family.

Not when He birthed this ministry through me.

Not when He gave me words, wisdom, and fire to pour out on social media.

So I’ve made a decision:

I will no longer ask the “butler” to remember my name.

I won’t beg to be noticed or push my way into rooms I’m not called to yet.

Like Joseph, I’ll sit in the prison until God stirs the king’s heart and sends for me.

To Those Who’ve Rejected Me: No Hard Feelings

If you’re reading this and you were one of the people who rejected me,

I don’t hold bitterness — and if there’s any left, I’m praying through it.

Because even Jesus said, “I do not need man to testify about Me, for I know what is in man.”

And if Jesus didn’t need human approval — neither do I.

To the Young Ministers and New Believers Reading This:

Please hear me:

Don’t rush.

Don’t chase after people God didn’t send.

Don’t beg for access God never ordained.

If God called you, He will appoint, anoint, connect, and send.

Sit. Be still. Wait on the Lord.

Let Him build your character before He reveals your platform.

Don’t open the door to rejection by seeking help where God never sent you.

I’m Still Learning. Still Serving. Still Surrendered.

I may not be where I want to be, but I know who called me.

And if God started this work in me, He will finish it — in His way, in His time, for His glory.

Until then, I’ll keep showing up, pouring out, and loving hard — because

it’s the love and will always be the love of God for me.